Monday, February 28, 2011

Having monday blues~
Anyway, looking forward to church wide bible study tml (; It's been a long time since we had this with pastor sharing the word. It's gonna be 8pm at Jurong West though. Tiring but god will give me strength to go through the day. Believe that it's gonna be a good word tml. Anticipating for it.

I have got a new nickname and that is botak alien face. Hahaha
I miss..
someone buying me a tub of ice cream when i'm upset. Coming straight down to find me upon knowing that I'm lonely. Cry with me when I'm crying. Laugh and talk as loudly as if we own the world. Drinking under the skies. Call me up 3am in the morning just because they need me to be there. Play guitar, sing a song that's only for me. Swim with me. Run with me as many rounds as I like just to make me happy. Rush out of the classroom to be wherever I may be, just to accompany me.

So many words, unsaid.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

When we're bored....

Can't wait for the weekends again!

Monday, February 21, 2011

Nicely said

If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours, but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers, but text instead of call because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u.” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear to care, but not too much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. There is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s car.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: you are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see. But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal, deliberate, and means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most importantly, it’s flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

“This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

— Ashton Kutcher

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Happy one year, one month



I think I've really changed a lot. People around me might not sense it or see it, but I know it myself. If you have seen me or know me since my secondary school days, esp from sec 1 or 2 onwards, you would see how much I have evolved. Haha. Was having a bad identity crisis when I was that age, doing and trying all sorts of things. To be truthful, I sometimes wish that I didn't have to go through all of that. I wished I had a normal life you know? Like now. The "now me" is what I define as normal. I wished there were less conflicts, less dramas, less relationships. Sad to say, I feel that I have gone through all of that pretty much myself. I don't dare to tell people what I've done wrong, I don't know how to express myself correctly to others.

But then again, things that don't bring you down, makes you stronger. True much (;
Also met some people along the way that I would never forget.
The irreplaceable ones.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

my life

"Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around "

from another planet

Nothing can separate two people that are deeply in love.
Not distance, not third parties, not time. Cause when you're in love, no matter how fun the world seems to be, your heart belongs to that person. Your feelings are very closely connected to theirs. It like a two in one kinda thing. You may not have seen each other for years, perhaps seprated by distance, but your hearts would still be in close approximate with each other.

"People who are meant to be together always find their way in the end" A tweet by eve that totally summarize how I feel.

I choose to believe that we're meant to be. That nothing can separate us. I may have my doubts, insecurities but I still choose to believe in this.

Friday, February 18, 2011


New British model couple for Burberry Spring/Summer 2011 Campaign, Jourdan & Sacha
Taken via Jacq's phone.
Friendship week has ended! Enjoyed this year's friendship week as there were more programs installed for us. And I feel so loved when I receive little presents. It's the thoughts that count. (;

Thursday, February 17, 2011


Some secrets that I would keep for life...

Stumbled across this song just now..
"She wears heels and she always falls
I let her think she's a know-it-all
But whatever she does wrong, it seems so right
My eyes don't believe her
But my heart swears by her"

Baby blue eyes by a rocket to the moon

Busy like a bumble bee

So glad to know that Friday is coming and this week is ending. What a tiring week in school..have to attend talks, organize various things and prepare for test. Econs test was demoralizing today. And I think maths is going to be just the same tml. Never did like maths. I just read through my notes in preparation for tml's test. English lessons in school seems to be more interesting now. Think Ms Nimala is really like "a google search bar" as quoted from eve. She seems to have this vast knowledge of things in the world.

Studying for all these tests this week makes me feel that i'm not read for the A's at all. There's so much more things for me to know, so much doubts to be clarified.

I'm so thankful for the people around me. People that can make me smile even when i'm tired. People that just keeps me going on (;

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Just tried this. I think it's rather fun. The results will show you how do you feel most valued/loved most. I think mine is rather accurate. If you're in a r/p, try the "for husbands" or "for wives" one.
Tried the languages of apology also, here's the result:
The link:
Given by stef

Friday, February 11, 2011

He loves me

Pointers taken during cell today..

1. Got to develop depth in a relationship
2.It is more blessed to give than to receive. Don't have a mindset of wanting to be repaid.
3. Love is only love when it's a choice
4.We must not demand all of our needs to be met by one person. Have reasonable demands. Only God can meet all your needs.
5. Hebrews 3:12-13
"Beware, See to it, brothers and sisters, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. 13 But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called “Today,” so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness. "
6. Don't harden your heart with sins

Guess number 5 and 4 speaks to me a lot. Been having rather negative feelings lately. It's like the ghost of my past insecurities hunting me once again. Became rather suspicious, fearful and insecure with myself and the people around me. Everyday waking up with a dreadful feeling. But this morning, the cell group was really mind refreshing/renewing. Really prayed out what's in my heart today and the feeling is awesome. It's like, you're being set free. Have you had that feeling before? Like you're being set free from certain negative feelings that have been troubling you.

You're a healer for those who are brokenhearted,
a friend for those who are lonely,
a protector of the weak and insecure,
a refuge to those who are lost.

You're good.

Anyway, I like it when darling tells me his thoughts. Esp thoughts about me...
I didn't know you like the me now better. I'm glad.

Ghost of my past insecurities

cause I wouldn't sleep tonight....

Eve's crib in B&W


Tadah! Spent the whole of today to clean up my room, super tiring. It was really dusty and stuff. I have the tendency to pile things up instead of clearing them. Haha. Also helped mum with her kitchen renovation. Moving stuffs, going out to buy meals..I only get to bath till 8plus. Haha. Anyway, I'm going to have my own room in about two weeks time! Really excited for it. Always wanted to have my own space where I have the freedom to do anything I like (; I want to have those Christmas lights, mosquito nets and dream catchers. They're all so pretty. Can't wait for it. heh

This week have been tiring but God is my strength (;
I'm still a happy girl.

Quote of the day:
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless—it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”

— C.S. Lewis

Shall have this quote written in my room (;

Currently watching this drama now (; 小小彬 so cutee.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

BMR = 1269.4
Calories needed to maintain current weight: 1967.6 calories/day
Calories needed to gain weight: 2467.57

Found this cool thing. Haha. Will start calculating tml (; Hopefully this time I will preserve. I just aim for 45kg. C'mon. Will tell you whether I have successfully gained 0.5kg/week.

Motivation and commitment.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

to infinty and beyond

Credits to wee, jacq and myself.

I feel that I have issues trusting people. No matter what they say, my mind would somehow be telling me that they're not saying the truth. I must keep telling myself that it's all in the mind....
Positive words form a positive world. Positive words, positive words....
I should not let my past experiences determine my future.

In 2011, >patience and >trust please.

Tml will be a long, tiring but meaningful day at school. Going to visit some old folks @Dakota after school with the girls. It's my first time doing this. Kinda looking forward to it (;

It's 12.24am, I should be in bed.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Been going out these few days and too busy to update anything here ;(
Going Jacq's house to visit later and sk to take photos ! Looking forward...

Thursday, February 3, 2011



Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Epicfailmorning# Haha. But I had fun running frantically with Jacq though. It's something that I'll never forget (; Heh. Went to eat Freshness Burger @centurysquare after school and I think that their burgers are much better than Mos Burger. Hmm, going out soon again for reunion dinner at uncle house. Happy Chinese New year everyone!